I do like setting my clock back in the fall for an extra hour of sleep, but I dread the shorter hours of daylight. It's just depressing sometimes, I don't fully understand why we have to go back and forth all the time. I mean, what would seriously happen if we just didn't ever do it? I'm sure there's some research or history about it out there in internet land, but I've got better things to do that sit and read an article about something I really can't change at the moment anyways.
I don't know why I felt the need to blog this... but i did.
Happy Halloween-
Anyone coming to Night in the Light? I'm doing face painting... yay! I'm really excited, I'll be the one with overalls on and a bandana in my hair!
Sunday, October 30, 2005
WOW!
Nickle Creek was FAntAStiC!!! I really enjoyed their cds that I got burned from my friends(grin), but to see them in concert... it left me speechless. I have to agree with my roomate that it is definitely one of the best concerts I have been to.. ever. They are incredibly talented, it wasn't just them playing the music, it was an experience, it drew me in and I often found myself just watching the fingers of Chris who played mandolyn like a maniac. It actually made me think of Matt Patrick, our beloved open door worship leader who is now residing in Slovakia for a year. The passion he had for what he was doing(speaking of Chris) was what made the connection to Matt.
The meet and greet portion wasn't as cool as I was hoping. It was nice because there were only like less than ten of us, but it seemed a bit rushed. I give them slack because I'm sure the touring schedule is hard-core, but one of the guys barely even attempted a conversation. I wasn't all about only wanting a signature, and I barely cared for that even, but more wanted to have a casual conversation. We talked to Sara (the amazing violinist)... and realized that she's only about 25-26, and that they've been playing music together since they were like 10 years old. She has been playing violin since she was six... that explains a lot! She also has a beautifully harmonizing voice that I would love to have! We talked to Chris a little bit too, he was more friendly... I think the guitarist, Sean, was the one who wasn't enthused about the whole thing. Everybody's got their bad days though, I guess. :) We took pictures with the two of them and then after, we were escorted out the back stage doors. They mentioned though, that they were planning on playing some stuff outside the tour bus on the street. We stuck around, but there were fans that were really obsessed and picture crazy that crowded around and gawked. Why couldn't they just treat em' like normal people, let them play without flashes going off every 5seconds.
I have a new appreciation for their music, and would definitely pay for tickets next time they come around. The cds just don't do the concert justice, but it's nice that the cds are still pretty good.
Oh yeah, I forgot, when we were in the meet and greet this one guy was asking Chris something about being a "blue-grass" band... and if they were trying to get into that scene at all. I loved Chris' answer, the main point of what he told the man was, we're not trying to be in any certain genre... why try hard to get into one certain label or category.
This was so interesting to me because having been a CCM reader for many years, there is always the topic in the christian music scene of "Do we try to go out into the world and sing and go for mainstream, or stay in the christian bubble"... etc... I never thought about that "labeling" junk occuring in all areas of music.
So, once again... a blog about music, you'd think I was some sort of musician..
nope, just a "wannabe" :) ... with a choir singing voice once in awhile
The meet and greet portion wasn't as cool as I was hoping. It was nice because there were only like less than ten of us, but it seemed a bit rushed. I give them slack because I'm sure the touring schedule is hard-core, but one of the guys barely even attempted a conversation. I wasn't all about only wanting a signature, and I barely cared for that even, but more wanted to have a casual conversation. We talked to Sara (the amazing violinist)... and realized that she's only about 25-26, and that they've been playing music together since they were like 10 years old. She has been playing violin since she was six... that explains a lot! She also has a beautifully harmonizing voice that I would love to have! We talked to Chris a little bit too, he was more friendly... I think the guitarist, Sean, was the one who wasn't enthused about the whole thing. Everybody's got their bad days though, I guess. :) We took pictures with the two of them and then after, we were escorted out the back stage doors. They mentioned though, that they were planning on playing some stuff outside the tour bus on the street. We stuck around, but there were fans that were really obsessed and picture crazy that crowded around and gawked. Why couldn't they just treat em' like normal people, let them play without flashes going off every 5seconds.
I have a new appreciation for their music, and would definitely pay for tickets next time they come around. The cds just don't do the concert justice, but it's nice that the cds are still pretty good.
Oh yeah, I forgot, when we were in the meet and greet this one guy was asking Chris something about being a "blue-grass" band... and if they were trying to get into that scene at all. I loved Chris' answer, the main point of what he told the man was, we're not trying to be in any certain genre... why try hard to get into one certain label or category.
This was so interesting to me because having been a CCM reader for many years, there is always the topic in the christian music scene of "Do we try to go out into the world and sing and go for mainstream, or stay in the christian bubble"... etc... I never thought about that "labeling" junk occuring in all areas of music.
So, once again... a blog about music, you'd think I was some sort of musician..
nope, just a "wannabe" :) ... with a choir singing voice once in awhile
Thursday, October 27, 2005
What are the Odds?
Yesturday during work I decided to log on the web to Cities 97, to see if there were any good songs on their web-cast radio. As I had that on I was browsing and noticed that you could sign-up for their weekly drawing, which consists of various concerts, etc. Well, i didn't know that you could choose several of the different things listed. I happened to just choose the Nickle Creek Concert... they have their 5-4-3-2-1 give away, and what do you know? I WON!
I received an email this afternoon that let me know I won 2 tickets in the 5th row and two "meet and greet" passes! ROCK! How cool is that? Who ever thinks they're really going to win? I sure don't.
So yay! I'm going to the concert with Angela... woot woot...
I want to blog something more... but still not sure how to sum up these past few days... they have been somewhat rollercoaster-"ish" but at the same time there has been this underlying and flowing peace.
I received an email this afternoon that let me know I won 2 tickets in the 5th row and two "meet and greet" passes! ROCK! How cool is that? Who ever thinks they're really going to win? I sure don't.
So yay! I'm going to the concert with Angela... woot woot...
I want to blog something more... but still not sure how to sum up these past few days... they have been somewhat rollercoaster-"ish" but at the same time there has been this underlying and flowing peace.
Monday, October 24, 2005
it's an evanescence sort of couple days
i go in ruts sometimes with music, and I think Evanescence will be one of those for awhile... it helps a lot for me to just belt out this when I'm stressed or a little upset in areas of my life... this is one of my outlets...
here are some lyrics of one of her songs...
whisper
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
forsaking all i've fallen for i rise to meet the end
some of the lyrics make me wonder what she's really trying to say... because I like the line that says "I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away"... but at the same time, I know that I can't do it all on my own... but I am the one who has to "choose" to not sit in where I'm at... so that's how I see it for me
anyone else have any comments about it? or of any other random things... or any other good music to use when stressed or upset to let it all out?
here are some lyrics of one of her songs...
whisper
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
forsaking all i've fallen for i rise to meet the end
some of the lyrics make me wonder what she's really trying to say... because I like the line that says "I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away"... but at the same time, I know that I can't do it all on my own... but I am the one who has to "choose" to not sit in where I'm at... so that's how I see it for me
anyone else have any comments about it? or of any other random things... or any other good music to use when stressed or upset to let it all out?
Sunday, October 23, 2005
busy weeks comin' up
Georgia(my partner in graphic design crime) left for Africa on Friday, which means a work load and a half for me for the next two weeks... i'm afraid of the stress that will most likely be coming tomorrow morning. Which means I need to leave the seat I am in, and hit the hay.
there is much more to blog about... but no time to do now.
love to all!
there is much more to blog about... but no time to do now.
love to all!
Friday, October 14, 2005
Pirates of the Caribbean character...
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
Thursday, October 13, 2005
holding back
About a week and a half ago I was talking to a good friend of mine... it was about a lot of different stuff, but one thing that came up was how I tend to hold things back in conversations. At first I just explained that I tend to hold my opinions to myself in some situations because others usually have much stronger ones and really good explanations to what they are feeling.
As for me, I obviously do have opinions, but I tend to hold them back because I have a hard time articulating them into things that others will understand. I feel sometimes if I try to make a bold statement, or hold an opinion about something I don't know the complete hardcore facts about, others will start asking "why's" or pointed questions that I can't answer. And then, I'll look stupid for having the opinion. Or I just won't be able to fully explain what I'm trying to say... so I hold back and let others speak.
I grew up with a sister(whom i love dearly) who was very vocal and could explain her life away in whatever circumstance needed. She could debate either side of any situation, and always seemed to have the perfect answer for the questions or whatever it was that she encountered. I remember watching/listening to her and my mom argue over and over about the same thing, and sometimes they'd be saying the exact thing, but in completely opposite ways. It drove me crazy. One thing I remember from those times was that my mom would at some point tell her, "I'm not wired the same way you are, my mind can't keep up with yours, you need to slow down and talk rationally"... or something to that effect.
This is how my mom and I are so alike, and though it's wonderful to know someone who understands that, I wish I could have more of my sister in me.
So, that's just some background to how I've come to learn and be the person I am today. I am trying to learn to change, to not care what people think of how things come out of me. The thing is, I don't worry about what they think of my opinion, it's about not knowing if they'll understand what I'm saying, and if they'll take the time to listen.
I've also noticed through a conversation my roomate and I were having, and through the book "Captivating" I just finished, that besides in groups of people, I do the same thing one on one. But, in these cases, it has more to do with what they will think. I'm afraid when it comes to a decision or "issue" of some kind, that I'll be rejected or not understood, or a whole heap of things. I'm so afraid of the unknown sometimes. I stand back and think about that and say to myself, "Isn't better to just find out what the unknown is?"
It's a hard concept to grasp... and to learn... learn to trust even though there are so many times that have been proven to me it will be okay.
Here is an excerpt from Captivating that speaks a bit about this...
"...But we don't get to wait to offer our lives until we have our acts together. We don't get that luxury. If we did, would anyone ever feel like offering anything? God asks us to be vulnerable. He invites us to share and give in our weaknesses. He wants us to offer the beauty that he has given us even when we are keenly aware that it is not all that we wish it were. He wants us to trust him.
How it turns out is no longer the point. Living in this way, as a woman alive, is a choice we make because it is the woman we want to be. It is our loving response to our Lover's invitation."
I finished the book, and it is soo good! I encourage any woman young or old to read it! I could read it again and get more things from it.
May I continue to understand that it doesn't matter how it comes out...
I want to take risks, and if I get hurt and fall down, He'll pick me back up and I'll learn from whatever I stumbled on.
As for me, I obviously do have opinions, but I tend to hold them back because I have a hard time articulating them into things that others will understand. I feel sometimes if I try to make a bold statement, or hold an opinion about something I don't know the complete hardcore facts about, others will start asking "why's" or pointed questions that I can't answer. And then, I'll look stupid for having the opinion. Or I just won't be able to fully explain what I'm trying to say... so I hold back and let others speak.
I grew up with a sister(whom i love dearly) who was very vocal and could explain her life away in whatever circumstance needed. She could debate either side of any situation, and always seemed to have the perfect answer for the questions or whatever it was that she encountered. I remember watching/listening to her and my mom argue over and over about the same thing, and sometimes they'd be saying the exact thing, but in completely opposite ways. It drove me crazy. One thing I remember from those times was that my mom would at some point tell her, "I'm not wired the same way you are, my mind can't keep up with yours, you need to slow down and talk rationally"... or something to that effect.
This is how my mom and I are so alike, and though it's wonderful to know someone who understands that, I wish I could have more of my sister in me.
So, that's just some background to how I've come to learn and be the person I am today. I am trying to learn to change, to not care what people think of how things come out of me. The thing is, I don't worry about what they think of my opinion, it's about not knowing if they'll understand what I'm saying, and if they'll take the time to listen.
I've also noticed through a conversation my roomate and I were having, and through the book "Captivating" I just finished, that besides in groups of people, I do the same thing one on one. But, in these cases, it has more to do with what they will think. I'm afraid when it comes to a decision or "issue" of some kind, that I'll be rejected or not understood, or a whole heap of things. I'm so afraid of the unknown sometimes. I stand back and think about that and say to myself, "Isn't better to just find out what the unknown is?"
It's a hard concept to grasp... and to learn... learn to trust even though there are so many times that have been proven to me it will be okay.
Here is an excerpt from Captivating that speaks a bit about this...
"...But we don't get to wait to offer our lives until we have our acts together. We don't get that luxury. If we did, would anyone ever feel like offering anything? God asks us to be vulnerable. He invites us to share and give in our weaknesses. He wants us to offer the beauty that he has given us even when we are keenly aware that it is not all that we wish it were. He wants us to trust him.
How it turns out is no longer the point. Living in this way, as a woman alive, is a choice we make because it is the woman we want to be. It is our loving response to our Lover's invitation."
I finished the book, and it is soo good! I encourage any woman young or old to read it! I could read it again and get more things from it.
May I continue to understand that it doesn't matter how it comes out...
I want to take risks, and if I get hurt and fall down, He'll pick me back up and I'll learn from whatever I stumbled on.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
still too busy...
It has still been one busy season with me lately. Although I've made a step in a couple right directions financially and in that one certain thing I wasn't specific about in the blog before this one. So, though things are still very busy at work and kind of still at home in general... I'm sort of seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, or atleast a tiny bit lighter of a load.
So, if I could give my life right now a song it would be....
40
by none other than U2, of course.
I waited patiently for the Lord
He inclined and heard my cry
He brought me up out of the pit
Out of the miry clay
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song?
How long to sing this song?
How long...how long...how long...
How long...to sing this song
He set my feet upon a rock
And made my footsteps firm
Many will see
Many will see and fear
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song?
How long to sing this song?
How long...how long...how long
How long...to sing this song
I just love this... though the thing that God brought to light and made me realize is hard, I will still sing a new song. It's amazing how we can be so stuck in one place, and not really realize it until we're willing to give something up.
That's where I'm at right now... at this place of things constantly changing and me not... until I give it all up and totally trust in Him and depend on Him no matter what, my things will remain and I will gain no distance. So God help me to keep giving up these things I feel like I need to hold on to, the things that only I can choose to release to you.
So, if I could give my life right now a song it would be....
40
by none other than U2, of course.
I waited patiently for the Lord
He inclined and heard my cry
He brought me up out of the pit
Out of the miry clay
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song?
How long to sing this song?
How long...how long...how long...
How long...to sing this song
He set my feet upon a rock
And made my footsteps firm
Many will see
Many will see and fear
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
I will sing, sing a new song
How long to sing this song?
How long to sing this song?
How long...how long...how long
How long...to sing this song
I just love this... though the thing that God brought to light and made me realize is hard, I will still sing a new song. It's amazing how we can be so stuck in one place, and not really realize it until we're willing to give something up.
That's where I'm at right now... at this place of things constantly changing and me not... until I give it all up and totally trust in Him and depend on Him no matter what, my things will remain and I will gain no distance. So God help me to keep giving up these things I feel like I need to hold on to, the things that only I can choose to release to you.
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